Summary : Riko does not understand her feeling about her study
A girl named Riko wants to be a nuclear expert, who can give the understanding to the wide of society that nuclear does not always about its danger but having is assorted of benefit. But God’s desire that she have to learn to become a doctor. At first it’s true that she doesn’t have many knowledge about medicine, or something else that related to doctor.
But now although she has known most of the knowledge which she has been studying, She still have found many difficulties to comprehending it. So that her grades does not well enough for her yet.
She have to be more struggle and continue to be struggle and also trying more harder from the other. But again she still find many difficulties, she hasn’t understand her lessons. Is it because the influence of her personality?
At first, when she was in high school, she was an active person to learned her lessons. Trying harder to maintaining her rank which she earn. In the school, when its lunchtime, she repeated the lesson which is just studied.
And at home, she did the same thing. But this time, she has try from beginning, why is it ? She felt very difficult to do it.
Is it because in her home there’s her parents who always watched over her and observe her lesson? And in her dormitory, she feel so free because there are no my parents to observing her? Although she has this situation, she has to try more harder again. She remember when she was a high-schooler student, she was a student who often asked question to her teachers, everything which she hasn’t understand yet. She asked her teachers until she really understand. Before she was getting satisfied, she didn’t desist to enquire. She often having discussion about her lesson with her friends in school. And also made a group-study, learning together about their lessons, and doing homework together. But, since she moved to her dormitory, she doesn’t know why her confident is losing away from her self.
She became a person who always kept quiet in class, do not ask to her lecturer about everything which she does not understand. She became a person who does not know about her self anymore. Not only in her course but also in her organization. She prefer to be quiet, sit, listening and studying altogether by her self. Sometimes she feel depress and confuse. How can she has to face all of her problem? She does not willing to be like this.
Actually, may be she has not ready to look full in this condition. This conditions are totally different from her life before. But she has to passed this condition during this two years. Since she moved to her dormitory, she does not want to become like this. She wish she could come back again to her true self who always enthusiastic. She does not want this condition happened for her lifetime. But she has no idea about this.
Word Count : 501